Frustration

I just wish I knew what was wrong with me!
These are my symptoms
1. Depressive thoughts every time brain is idle
2. Cutting to relieve anger and sadness
3. Putting the "needs" of others before my own emotional health
4. Interpreting everyone's words as an attack
5. Decrease in appetite
6. Tired all the time, regardless of amount of sleep
7. Holding in of emotions
8. Pushing away family
9. Indifference to change
Sigh...